Weight loss status: Currently at 183 pounds. Eating has been well, up and down. Today I did fairly well; not spectacular but a step in the right direction :-) I'm going to start riding my bike to work this week. Would have started today but it was raining, so I opted for the bus instead. Tomorrow I go to Zurich for my class instead of going to PSI, so I'm planning to start on Wednesday. I'll probably go one or two days a week at first and then hopefully move up to most days when the weather is nice. That is a nice 24 km of bike riding each time! It will take slightly longer than going by bus, but there are showers at the lab and I will have more energy I'm sure. I know when I was going to the gym first thing in the morning in KS I had much more energy all the time. Unfortunately the gym isn't open until 9am here....not so convenient. I'm definitely not going to renew my membership since the hours make it not worth it.

In other news, I find myself struggling to be happy with my state in life all the time. I mean, I am really happy with where I am. I've got a Masters degree, two years to go on my PhD, and I'm getting paid to live in Europe. I've got a great family, friends, have everything I need; yet I still manage to find myself feeling like I'm missing something. Of all the things I have going for me, the ones that are most important to me as the end goals of my life are not even on the horizon. I want so badly to have a husband and family. I have faith that in time those things will come, when they are supposed to. I realize that if I had those things now I wouldn't be able to be doing my PhD in Switzerland, jetting around the world to workshops, schools, and meetings.

But at the same time, I see so many of my friends getting married, having kids, buying their first houses, and starting on their lives. And I just feel a bit left behind. I need some help in accepting that this is where I am supposed to be in life and being satisfied with it. I could really use a spiritual director, yet there isn't anyone here that I know of who offers it. Funny, when I had it in KS I didn't really take advantage of it. Mostly because I was being told things I didn't want to hear, even though I need to hear them. But now I would do whatever I could to have that guidance...